It may feel like a lifetime ago, but yes, Prince Harry’s book, Spare, was released this year — back in January. And it features several raw experiences about his life, many of which he’d kept private over the years.

One of the most shocking things detailed in Spare is an alleged physical assault that Harry claims took place in 2019. He says that his brother William, whom he calls his “archnemesis,” referred to Harry’s wife, Meghan Markle, as “rude” and “abrasive,” before allegedly attacking him.

“He set down the water, called me another name, then came at me. It all happened so fast,” Harry writes, “So very fast. He grabbed me by the collar, ripping my necklace, and he knocked me to the floor. I landed on the dog’s bowl, which cracked under my back, the pieces cutting into me. I lay there for a moment, dazed, then got to my feet and told him to get out.”

Elsewhere in his book, Harry candidly recalls the moment he had sex for the first time. He describes the encounter, which was with an “older lady” while he was 17, as “humiliating,” writing, “I mounted her quickly, after which she spanked my ass and held me back… One of my mistakes was letting it happen in a field, just behind a busy pub. No doubt someone had seen us.”